My Place

2011-04-07T18:43:00.000-07:00

Biarlah dahaga ini menemani rasa rindu
Lepaskan rasa lapar mengelung rasa cinta
Tumpah rasa ini diatas sajadah
Hanya kepada MU jualah aku berserah
Hanya dihadapan MU aku berani menumpah kan tetesan air
Yang sudah lama kubendung

Temani aku wahai kesedihan,,,,
Jangan tinggal kan aku hai Cinta

1000 days---- in remembrance of him

2011-03-31T17:56:00.000-07:00

Time tells,, life is must go on
No winter,, No Autumn,,
Seeing the dark only
Life passes without you
Sorrow cures when time tells
The funeral love as if like a dream
Cry,, does not mean a good bye
This is it,,,
Life passes without you

9 9 9 ,,,,...:((

2011-03-31T17:51:00.000-07:00

Know that sun will be shiny
Eventually the Moon will also be there
Stay,,, don't run away
Don't have strength to hold
To resist
To keep

9 9 8 ,,,,,^

2011-03-30T22:16:00.000-07:00

I can see the shadow in the distance
I can see it in the darkness
When I look at it,, you were not there
I can not reach by my hand
I like the feeling
The feeling,,, it seems you were there
I just can't believe,,
That it just ,,, its over

Never,, Gonna ,, Leave,, its Feeling

2011-03-29T18:20:00.000-07:00

Feeling is so strong
Dont ever walk away
It is good, the perfect feeling
I never leave this feeling
And I will never let it go

9 9 7 ,,,,,,,

2011-03-29T18:18:00.000-07:00

It is Wednesday,,,,

Just Feeling

2011-03-28T23:19:00.000-07:00

I watch myself, cry, sad.

When I look at back,, I feel you were still there

I still remember, a kind of memories remain unchanged

Just a feeling,,, this is real

The pain inside is small memory,,,,

COUNTING THE DAYS,,,,,,,...

2011-03-28T23:07:00.000-07:00

9 9 6 ,,,,,,

2011-03-16T20:07:00.000-07:00

I have nothing to feel
I lost the sense
I have no clue what to do
I am down
I lost the feeling
I am lost,, already lost

Lost

2011-01-11T17:28:00.001-08:00

It is hard to believe that you have gone
I am seeing now,, the shadows struggle to reach the treasures
If I had only new, that life is too short, I will never abandon the moment that never come back.
I want the feeling never go away.
Time tells, Time has made it change into reality

God,, I know its too late
Too late to cry,
Too late to regret
Too late to begging,, wish this is only dream

I am alone,,
I am lost,,,
I am dying in the darkness
I almost alone,,
My heart crash, while you are not there
My soul tear apart into pieces
The sadness has won
I can not imagine live without you

I am Lost,,,,already

Proudness

2010-10-20T23:14:00.000-07:00

On 27 August is the day,,they will wear Toga,,,, I am so proud of him. He already become young people and should be ready assimilate to the society. It remind me when his father did the same. Finally, he has finished and fulfill what I wanted. It is not easy, fighting and struggling alone to survive with them.

The new page is waiting, son. You have to prepare yourself to see the world, and just to remind you world is not friendly unless you become a good person, care about sorrounding, and down to earth.

Thank you God and thank you to big families, and to all my friends. I am so grateful to have friends who always be here, cheer me up, to listen, to help.
You are great,,, I will never forget of your kind, you are always in my heart..

Love you guys

One,,, and the other

2010-03-01T23:31:00.000-08:00

One solved, second done, next accomplished
But still there are so many have to be finished
Why its never completed ?
Why this always come into my life
What if I could not touch the things ?
Where do I go to whisper what I have inside
Whom would like to listen ?

Only time will prove

2010-02-21T22:50:00.001-08:00

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2010-02-21T20:05:00.000-08:00

God,

Actually I am really weak, then strengthen me

Actually I am so poor , please enrich me ,,,

Actually I am so miserable, please create me as a glorious person

You are Almighty

2010-02-14T23:32:00.000-08:00

Where do I go,, to talk and share what I feel.
God, please protect me and keep me the faith

I MISS HIM,,,,,

2010-02-08T23:26:00.000-08:00

I really miss him,,
I mean it
Tears is streaming down
My Heart is crying because
I miss him
I wish he could come back
And help me

God,, I miss him

Not Fair Enogh

2010-02-08T23:10:00.000-08:00

Pa,, after you gone everything seem are unfair to me,,
I don't know where to go,,
Share to whom
I have no one ,, no one want to help
World is not fair

They treat me like a thing, they treat to the one they like
How could I stop when it doing this
How come it can happen and dare to do toward me
Is it just because she could not provide a good service ?
Well sorry, she is not type a person like that
Licking finger is good,,, that is a service for you

Anyone can stop it ?
HE is not sleeping, HE is not blind,
HE is ALMIGHTY,, HE KNOWS,, HE SEES,

I just can stand anymore,,,

Worries and Hard Time

2010-02-01T16:08:00.000-08:00

Worries always dancing in my mind, thinking what kind of trouble will come and get into my life.
Even if I dont know when,,
So many happening and it is really bothering me
I have reached the higher age, and require with behaviour, and wise
It is hard to be that part

When me and you were together, we argued constantly,
But does not mean we disagree.
We were happy ,, at the end.
So sweet to remember
Too good to dream in
You are in all those memories I had

If I can turn the clock back, where I can grab you and hold on tight in my heart
But looking you at that sight,,, it must had been the best for you

If you could ask me,, I will give the answer
If you ask me to stay and hold you tight,,
I will do only for you
That is the words that I want to say, and I know you feel the same,
We never could forget, saying we would be love each other and live forever
While we kiss gentle and slowly because of the time has come in age
Until the end of the world
And,, we will meet there for sure

From the bottom of my heart, I am so glad that we had been together
Was always having a soulmate beside me,,,
With passion, patient, and warm,, all you had was beautiful

Even my heart crying, but I always smile
When the shadows come, and try to help me,, and saying ...
I dont feel nothing,,, You dont understand...:((

So I’m here for you now,
I will keep the faith and I will do anything just to make them happy, succeed and smile in a happiness
I know,, that I am alone,,,

I feel, many thorns in my heart and that suffers
So many chains in my shoulder, that is why I walk hard
Dead leaves fell down in front of my eyes and spread on my feet,,
But I could not take it
And I keep this way,, because they are still mine,,,
I love you,,,,

Thank you,, God

2010-01-12T00:02:00.000-08:00

Today is the special day for me. The eldest has finished her bachelor.
If,, he was still in this world, He would be proud that part of his dream come true.
Sweetheart,
as parents, we only can support you , pray and show you the right direction.
May what you have had today will be an encouragement your brothers and sister.
We hope, that you can continue it, and it has not yet finished.
We pray that you will be a better person, maintain what you have had and try to be a humble person, keep the chain as you are, share your knowledge like your pa did, willing to help other when they need. Last but not least,, love your parents, brothers and sister like you love yourself...

We proud of you,,,
We love you...

Jakarta, 12 January 2010

Become,,,,

2009-12-13T17:21:00.000-08:00

Forgive me,, for not being so patient when I was with you
Just realize, that life is not so easy
Considering, the situation will have to think wise with a decision
Life is unfair
Where to go
Who want to listen
I will have to swallow, keep deep in here,
Keep secreat, hiding somewhere, where no one can find it
Not even my shadows,,,

Just forgive me for being upset
I wish I could hold my breath for a moment
Then to release and tell what I have inside
Regret,, always appear eventually
It is too late,,,
Have to spirit, encourage myself

I love you ,,, four shadows...

You become my bell, you ring me when I fall
You become my spirit, you slap me whan I fainted
You become my clock, you alarm me when i stare on the wall
You become my lantern, you light me when I walk into the dark
You become my leader, when I can not see the distance
You become my blanket, when I feel lonely and cold
You warm me, you hugh me and flatter, rub me ,,,
I know you care about me...

My four shadows ,, please dont leave me alone

My love is everlasting....

Soul and shadows

2009-12-07T16:24:00.000-08:00

Its sometime we can hardly to see the moment where we can not handle it anymore. Where to go and trying to find a solution and wishing at the same time that a miracle will change the situation. Dont know who are available stand by close to hear what it is deep inside. The heart scrible without a noise.Its alone in the dark,,, in the life meet four shadows are following. It will be an angel to protect the shadows. The lonely soul,, always be a lonely. I wish ,, just wising the time will pass by and wish the lonely soul become a happy soul as his companion. The soul never die instead to face the life in the hardship and will become a survivor.

Memory from friends

2009-09-13T19:18:00.000-07:00

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Wahyu Sha in memoriam May 9, '08 12:11 AM

Mungkin, tidak banyak lagi yang kenal dengan nama Wahyu Sha. Jamannya sudah berubah. Tapi buat generasi atau mahasiswa FTUI tahun 70 an, Wahyu Sha cukup dikenal. Dia adalah Ketua POSMA 75 (Pekan Orientasi Mahasiswa FTUI angkatan 1975) dan kemudian terpilih menjadi Ketua Umum Senat Mahasiswa 1975 - 1976.

Di masyarakat, Wahyu Sha yang ngganteng ini dikenal sebagai penyiar radio Elshinta. Sekitar dua atau tiga tahun yang lalu, saya meilihat namanya terpampang sebagai salah satu calon anggota Komisi Penyiaran. Dunia broadcast rupanya tidak pernah lepas dari kehidupannya. Menjelang ajalnya, beliau menjabat sebagai Dewan Pengawas RRI. Berikut kenangan yang ditulis oleh rekan saya di milis FTUI :

Inna lilllahi wa inna ilaihi roji'un........
Hari ini kita kehilangan lagi seorang senior yang saya kenal baik....

Hari itu awal Januari 1975.....saat kaki ini pertama kali menapakkan kaki
di Kampus FTUI Salemba, setelah melihat Pengumuman di pagi harinya......kami semua mahasiswa baru 1975 berhadapan dengan seorang Senior yang sangat bersahaja.....sekaligus sebagai Ketua Panitia POSMA SM FTUI 1975....Wahyu Sha......

Dalam kurun waktu yang cepat saya bisa dekat hubungannya, khususnya
sebagai yunior dan senior.....bahkan sekali waktu 2 senior saat itu alm
Wahyu Sha dan alm. Widianto (Ars-70) pernah tinggal (indekost) disekitar
dimana saya tinggal untuk beberapa lama....keduanya adalah figur yang
sangat akrab dengan hampir seluruh mahasiswa FTUI saat itu.......

Belakangan, Wahyu Sha menjadi Ketua Senat Mahasiswa FTUI Periode
1975-1976......yang mana dalam perjalanannya cukup banyak menghadapi
dinamika kehidupan mahasiswa FTUI saat itu.....

Wahyu Sha juga dikenal sebagai seorang Penyiar Radio Elshinta saat itu,
mulai dari lokasi di sekitar Tosari, pindah ke Cikini dan terakhir saya
tahu di sekitar Rawasari.....beberapa kali saya ikut menemani Wahyu Sha
saat bertugas tengah malam....Rabu malam.....banyak hal yang kita
diskusikan pada acara malam sampai menjelang subuh itu.....

Wahyu Sha seorang yang humoris dan pencinta musik juga....bersama-sama Prof. Ral...Arifin Sasongko....Ibnu Kartiko...Budi Sis...Desmond
Tobing....dan beberapa nama lain yang saya lupa, ikut menyemarakkan
kehidupan mahasiswa FTUI di bidang seni dengan membentuk LISMA - Lingkaran Seni Mahasiswa FTUI.......

Selamat jalan kakakku...sahabatku.....Wahyu Sha.....semoga seluruh amal
ibadah Mu diterima disisi Allah SWT....Amin....

Hari ini, di hari Jum'at yang baik, Allah SWT telah mencukupkan waktunya. Batas kehidupan dunia yang fana untuk memberikan jalan ke keabadian. Mungkin Allah SWT menganggap bekalnya untuk menghadapNya telah cukup, dan semoga demikian adanya.

Kita yang masih tertinggal dalam kereta duniawi masih menunggu giliran. Semoga waktu yang tersisa tidak membawa mudarat, yang bisa menghapus amal ibadah yang kita jalankan setiap hari.

Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun

""

Message from Niece,,,,,,,

2009-09-13T19:02:00.001-07:00

Mau cerita sedikit tentang alm. yaa....:

Om Wahyu itu buat saya merupakan sosok bapak yang setiap kali saya susah...pasti dengan sukarela dan sambil senyum-senyum memberikan ide-ide atau saran yang bikin hati nggak panas/ kesel.
Soalnya kalo seneng org biasanya kan lupa tuh.. hehehe... (maap ya tante..)
Nggak bosen-bosennya berdua sama tante Witje nasehatin kita sekeluarga.. .

Terakhir ketemu almarhum pas Lebaran 2007, kita sekeluarga besar Hadiwardoyo ke Pekalongan naik bus.. Dan kita sempet janjian bahwa Lebaran tahun ini mau sama-sama lagi tour ke Purwokerto. Sayang... ternyata saat itu adalah hari-hari terakhir saya ketemu, ngobrol banyak, numpang tidur sekamar (diisi 7 orang loh..)di hotel & nimba ilmu sama alm. Om Wahyu yang juga merupakan wali nikah saya pd tahun 2005 yang lalu..yang tidak akan pernah terlupakan jasa-jasa & pesannya...

Selamat jalan Om Wahyu.. selamat istirahat panjang...
Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Roji'un..... ......... .

2009-08-26T18:24:00.001-07:00

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Sorrow

2009-08-24T18:23:00.000-07:00

Still can not tell them how did I thro the moment
Sad and feeling can not be share
Still have to set mind, mentally to share
The right time does not mean being a good time
An effort had ever tried, again and again
Its because does not look good when the tears streaming down
It is fine ma,,, tell us,,, release if you feel it has to be,,, they said
Try again at once,,, but sorrow remain the pain,,

Sometimes I feel sorrow bring me a love
Love bring me the pain
Pain ,,give me a happiness
I want this feeling never go away
Sorrow ,,, it is fear,,
Eventually,, it will after you

Life and Death,,,,

2009-08-23T18:19:00.000-07:00

Let the tears fall when I feel,,
Like I conscious that this is not a dream,,
Cry when I have to,, no one can say don't cry because its destiny
It is easy to say,,
I know life is only once and death will come and you will never know,,
Time will tell.
Things to do is hope and pray,,,
May Allah blessing the life and my treasures to continue its life.
The goal is has to be come true,, I have to finish my task,,,
Create my wealth into something special and I can be proud of it
Useful also be a wise like their Pa...

Life's life,,,
Grateful and happy with what I have,, and If one day you have fulfilled your wish,, you will raise your hand to reach it...

Death's death ,,,,,
Leave in peace considering I have done and given the best thing to my treasures,, and they will always remember,,,,

They Know,,,,,

2009-08-23T17:02:00.000-07:00

It has been barely one year 3 months 14 days 2 hours 28 minutes after the loss of my husband. I feel,,,,, still , that he has been around,, and will return soon to us. I have been trying to kill the feeling of sadness, emptiness, and fill my sense with anything well I think it can help me. A hundred percent to accompany and to join kids activities ,,, temporarily.

This year is the second Ramadan without him and will face Ied Fitri without him as well. We will get used to see this moment without him, but it is not easy. We have to try hard. Day two of Ramadan I make myself tied up with anything I can do, just to make me awake from the true dream. A new life has begun, yes ,,,, have to start with a new life,, whether you like it or not. I could not see a bargaining stage in this case. There is no boundary,, wishing if we can begging while we were standing at the edge. YOU pull out and give a little time. YOU want it,, no one can stop.

I believe it was a happy time for him when the death's funeral time and for us,, we have a deep sadness when we know someone we love gone forever.
He can see at that time..... friends, colleagues, brothers and sisters, neighbours, cousins, even people who I have never seen,, they all come to say good bye..
This was a great moment, I can say it, then remark that he was a wise man, he had dedicated the rest of his life to anybody out there.
He had shared and taught his knowledge to everyone who need it.
He supposed to hold on,, it has not settled to reach your hand
They never realized
When the time has come
Eventually inconvenience happen and no one can resist.

What a surpirise,,,,

2009-08-18T21:09:00.000-07:00

Tanpa disengaja,, saya mendapatkan di situs SD dimana anak yang bungsu bersekolah,,,

Penghargaan Siswa Teladan
Contributed by Badiyo
Friday, 17 August 2007

Dalam rangka memperingati HUT RI ke-62, Sekolah Islam Al Syukro telah memberikan penghargaan kepada siswa dan guru yang berprestasi. Selain itu, Sekolah Islam Al Syukro juga memilih kelas yang paling bersih dan menyenangkan untuk pelaksanaan kegiatan belajar mengajar.

Untuk siswa teladan SD Islam Al Syukro terpilih Werdy Rifkyandono Ibrahim, kelas V-A. Sedangkan untuk SMP, terpilih sebagai siswa teladan adalah Sarah Ajeng Kusumarani, Kelas IX-B. Untuk Guru paling kreatif terpilih Ibu Tarni, S.Pd. Sementara kelas I.C SD Islam Al Syukro terpilih sebagai kelas yang paling menyenangkan untuk proses kegiatan belajar mengajar.

He is still the best,, and we proud of him,,,

Under circumstances,,, then you can do it

2009-07-30T23:43:00.000-07:00

Hanya jeda 1 minggu, saya harus menghadiri Tasyakuran anak bungsu. Tidak terasa Agil sudah lulus SD dengan nilai yang baik. Keinginan Pa adalah menyekolahkan di sebuah sekolah Islam di Jakarta selatan, dimana kakak nya juga lulusan dari sekolah yang sama. Saya yakin, jika ini keinginan yang tulus dan atas seijin Allah,, Insya Allah akan dikabulkan. Mudah-2an apa yang di ingin kan Pa akan terlaksana.

Alhamdulillah,,, Agil dapat bersekolah di sekolah yang dia inginkan. Keadaan mengharuskan saya mengajarkan dia untuk pulang dengan menggunakan kendaraan umum dan lain nya yang harus dilakukan sendiri. Berat ? ya,, memang, tapi harus. Bersamaan dengan berlalu nya waktu, sepulang sekolah anak ku sudah dapat menggunaakan kendaraan umum sendiri. Jangan lupa mengucap Bismillah ya nak,,,,

Power of Love

2009-07-30T23:33:00.000-07:00

Cobaan yang paling berat adalah jika kita kehilangan orang yang kita cintai. Kita harus banyak berterima kasih atas kesehatan dan kebahagiaan yang tak terhingga atas apa yang telah diberikan oleh Yang Maha Kuasa.
Setahun yang lalu kami mengalami cobaan yang amat sangat berat. Tidak tahu akan berbagi kepada siapa. Tidak ada keberanian untuk berbagi rasa kepada saudara, kerabat dekat. Cobaan demi cobaan dihadapi dengan tegar,,, kepercayaan kepada Yang Maha Kuasa bahwa jodoh, rejeki dan takdir DIA yang mengatur. Hanya kekuatan dari kami, anak-2, kasih sayang dan cinta yang kami miliki yang membuat kami bisa bertahan dan kuat menghadapinya.
Allah tidak akan memberikan cobaan kepada kita kalau tidak bisa menjalani nya. Cobaan dan perjalanan ini masih jauh,, tapi kami percaya bahwa jalan pasti ada akhirnya.

First Time in My Life without Him....

2009-07-30T18:21:00.000-07:00

Kebahagiaan yang diberikan oleh anak-ku adalah rejeki yang ku nikmati dan syukuri. Dan merupakan kebanggaan sendiri buat aku dan suami (yang telah pergi mendahului kami). Memang ini merupakan cobaan yang harus kami hadapi, Insya Allah kami dapat melaluinya. Tepatnya tanggal 21 Juni 2009, saya dan putri sulung menghadiri acara pelapasan anak ke-3 yang baru lulus SMP. Rasa kesendirian menerpa hati ini, kalau suami masih ada tentunya saya akan hadir bersama. Kerinduan merelung hati ini, setitik air mata bergulir dipinggir kelopak. Terlebih pada waktu guru menyebut nama Wiana Ariztriani sebagai the best 10 peringkat 4 dari Nilai Ujian Negara, rasa bangga, terharu menghalau hati ini. Alangkah bahagianya jika Pa ada disamping kami dan turut melihat betapa anak-anak tetap menjadi yang terbaik dalam berprestasi dan dapat membanggakan orang tua. Semoga apa yang telah anak-anak alami tidak menjadikan mereka terpukul.

Terima kasih Ya Allah,,, atas semua yang telah berikan kepada ku,, Semoga aku dapat menjaga titipan MU sampai kelak mereka menjadi anak-anak yang berguna, dapat menjaga nama baik orang tua, menjaga derajat yang telah engkau tingkatkan.

Amien